Monday, August 19, 2013

First day of a last chapter.

"I'm a a ship sailing and the seas are rough
I'm a satellite in the space above
When I'm holding here
Or I'm hanging up
In the suspension"

We'll see how the epilogue turns out. Because then only will we know how this ends.

Technically, today is the first day of this semester. Meh. But I'm still in Ipoh, because my enrollment day is tomorrow. So I'll be travelling back to Penang today! Oh the joy of the Island and the sadness of not being home. All you college/uni people will get this mixed feelings I always always experience.

So, Idk why the heck I've been feeling so 'lost' in the mind sector. I need to get my shit together and figure out what I want/need to do for my final year project, which is to be complete during this semester. Yeah, no classes whatsoever this sem, just the project! (Which I've yet to decide on it's content or my advising lecturer.) Damn, damn, damn. ANDDDD, on top of that, I need to figure out which IT sector I wanna major in for my degree next year.

Which also leads to the source of my lack of decision making. The fact that this is my final semester means I leave Penang and say goodbye end of this year :'( Which makes me have slight anxiety as I've called it home for close to 3 years?(Okay, maybe 2 1/2 years!) And I really really love Penang. It has so much to offer and so much more, I can tell. *SIGHS*

But we all need to move on, close old chapters and open new ones in other places and spaces. Subang would be the next destination! Not the biggest fan of KL and it's surroundings. Meh. I don't even know where is what. Lack of interest in knowing, stemmed from the lack of like.

Several things to look forward in Subang though:
like being housemates with Daniel!!
and also having older people around?
(The no 1. problem in Penang is that the bulk of students are from Pre-U programs, which ultimately mean they're younger than me. Ish betul one. At least in SU, there will be a mixture due to the bulk of Aussie degrees being only available here.)

Here's what I'm probably gonna dread in SU:
food?(either the lack of good food or the price of food)
having to introduce yourself to everyone
(ALSO, having to judge college activities and picking which ones would mesh well with me. Though, I told Daniel to join and scout which clubs are interesting and nice to join. Hopefully he gets good intel!)
and finally, having to start over again in a new college in a new city.

It's scary how we're pushed into places we'd not normally go, but after it's over and you look back, you thank God that you were pushed there, to help you grow and to help enhance your perspective of things. I'm not ready to say goodbye to Penang, but I'm sure God's just laughing at my senseless worrying and saying "You'll know what's in store for you, soon enough".




Salut,
-clare ;)